In life, you have to take the pace that love goes. You don't force it. You just don't force love, you don't force falling in love, you don't force being in love - you just become. I don't know how to say that in English, but you just feel it.
Life is never what you expect it to be. I caught myself this week being the girl I always have been, the hopeless romantic..... Just how hopeless am I? A Walk to Remember, I cry the entire movie- not because she dies- beacause he loves her UNCONDITIONALLY. I cry so hard I get a headache. I digress.
What happened? I had a bad day and I needed a drink, an outlet of some kind. Of course on these type of days none of my friends are ever available. Usually, I just curl up, cry it out, drink wine and eat pizza. Not this day, I went to Marianos and had a drink by myself and cried a bit lol. Drinks were good and should have been for 11buck a pop! But then, he, my prince charming came to my aid. He had so many words of encouragement for me, of course made me cry more, also made me laugh, but in that moment, I realized that he was my bestfriend too.
Back to the quote- I am more than surprised at the timing of my life. For 4 years he and I played this "friends" game back and forth doing our own thing, arguing, evading, trying to force a relationship and failing. But when I stepped back and stopped trying to force life and love- it happened- just like that. I am falling finally, for the first time and I want to bask in every second of it. I did not think it would happen this quickly or this slowly- it is all so confusing and new for me. It is scary and wonderful and new and familiar and I become this little girl who wants to be protected and held. He makes me into a new ME and I like it. It's not forced it just is... now if I ever muster up the courage to tell him I love him.
Life is never what you expect it to be. I caught myself this week being the girl I always have been, the hopeless romantic..... Just how hopeless am I? A Walk to Remember, I cry the entire movie- not because she dies- beacause he loves her UNCONDITIONALLY. I cry so hard I get a headache. I digress.
What happened? I had a bad day and I needed a drink, an outlet of some kind. Of course on these type of days none of my friends are ever available. Usually, I just curl up, cry it out, drink wine and eat pizza. Not this day, I went to Marianos and had a drink by myself and cried a bit lol. Drinks were good and should have been for 11buck a pop! But then, he, my prince charming came to my aid. He had so many words of encouragement for me, of course made me cry more, also made me laugh, but in that moment, I realized that he was my bestfriend too.
Back to the quote- I am more than surprised at the timing of my life. For 4 years he and I played this "friends" game back and forth doing our own thing, arguing, evading, trying to force a relationship and failing. But when I stepped back and stopped trying to force life and love- it happened- just like that. I am falling finally, for the first time and I want to bask in every second of it. I did not think it would happen this quickly or this slowly- it is all so confusing and new for me. It is scary and wonderful and new and familiar and I become this little girl who wants to be protected and held. He makes me into a new ME and I like it. It's not forced it just is... now if I ever muster up the courage to tell him I love him.
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