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My Love

What comes to mind when I think of LOVE... well first Diggy Simmons song you're my 4 letter word (Jamming) Love is new for me, not really, but really. I am ready for the all encompassing, all enduring love. Life is not always perfect but I feel that it can and will last forever. We hear so many opinions on what love should look like and how it should feel but it is a personal battle. I want committment, compassion, endurance, faith, hope, knowledge, communication and acceptance. I am so ready to promise my all, to feel as though I am that person- my other half. I know what it is to be in like, to be in lust- but I have never given my ALL to one person. I know myself and I have always held back a portion of myself for fear of failing at love. At 25 I am now ready to hand it all over and say here I am.

What keeps me from loving? Fear.
Why am I scared? I have no idea.

So today, I am jumping head first, maybe feet first- well it does not matter. I am jumping all in- into LOVE.

He is everything I want, nothing I need.... this makes no sense but I understand it. Living in a world of contradictions but he makes me into the me I always wanted to be.... I am unafraid with him, uninhibited, safe, young, free and in love. Now am I going to tell him that... ehhhh save that for another day.
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