Life from my view

I have wrote and deleted and wrote and deleted. It has been a while but I have been on my grind for work, school and cultivating a new relationship. Kind of in my feelings today. Not sure why. Loving my job, in a good place mentally, kind of stagnant physically but that is an ongoing process but all in all life as it is- is good. I am scared of the feelings. I am scared of falling off of the ledge again and being hurt. But the journey is so worth it. Falling in love is what life is about whether it is falling in love with a person or your lifes passion. Love is worth every text message, every argument, every fear, every laugh. I am in this new place and it is scary for me. I know what it is like to be in love and it be unrequited- but I have no clue what its like to be loved and be in love at the same time. It is new territory for me and the LOVE word- let me not. I am so afraid to use that loosely. His question to me- are you happy? I am so for now I will enjoy the journey and tr...

In keeping with current events and our recent "Blood Moon" I wanted to write something in relation to the moon and new beginnings and my thoughts and feelings as I looked upon the full moon these past few days. Night time is magical for me- it seems I awaken!  Could just be that I am not a morning person or the fact that I nap daily- but I feel its more than that. I have always enjoyed star gazing and looking into the moon and realizing that although most feel that the day is done ; at night I am reminded and promised that a new day is on its way. Regardless of the circumstances today- tomorrow is on the horizon. Everything around us has an effect on something within us. As a woman I know that our bodies are in sync with phases of the moon in the form of our menstrual cycles- which in turn affects our ability to create new life. New life is refreshing! I have never been this excited to move before... but to think of beginning anew has been the focal point of my tho...

"It's Good To Be Queen"- Quote on my favorite coffee mug. But heavy is the head that wears the crown... I don't care! Crown ME! As I sit her sipping my tea while watching some medieval show- it hit me! I am a queen. So this spurred me into one my infamous google searches on the qualities and characteristics of a queen; the expectations and needs of a queen; what does it mean to be queen? Of course there is Queen Elizabeth, Queen Esther,Queen Nefertiti and Queen of Sheba- what did these women possess that others do not.  Aside from royal blood and marriage- they possessed a certain mindset, strength and respect for themselves first, then for the people. Women in general have always been seen as the infererior sex due to our "ambition" as I call it in the Garden. As women we have always wanted more and are able to yield our power over men once we realize how to use it properly. As queens we possess the potential to not only birth a nation but to contro...

Update: I completed my 24 hours of solitude- which according to my friends is more than enough time to get over a breakup lol.  Upon completion- I have since ventured into the world of happy hours! Called up one of my sorors headed and headed to Plano. I figured that if I am to meet someone I must get out there. So I did.  Had a good time, not too much pressure on myself and just chilled out, did not try too hard and voila! 2 numbers and a possible date.   This morning while deciding to write this particular blog... I ran across a recent article about dating in dallas. It was quite true and entertaining. We have limited date night options besides eating- there are no beaches, mountains or lush green areas. Since we have to eat- most restaurants offer you the down home, southern fried, BBQ sauce dipped, tex-mex options in very large portions- talk about gaining weight if you are on the dating scene. Not to mention the guy that works in a call center making 15/hr ...