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Life As It Is

I have wrote and deleted and wrote and deleted. It has been a while but I have been on my grind for work, school and cultivating a new relationship. Kind of in my feelings today. Not sure why. Loving my job, in a good place mentally, kind of stagnant physically but that is an ongoing process but all in all life as it is- is good.

I am scared of the feelings. I am scared of falling off of the ledge again and being hurt. But the journey is so worth it. Falling in love is what life is about whether it is falling in love with a person or your lifes passion. Love is worth every text message, every argument, every fear, every laugh. I am in this new place and it is scary for me. I know what it is like to be in love and it be unrequited- but I have no clue what its like to be loved and be in love at the same time. It is new territory for me and the LOVE word- let me not. I am so afraid to use that loosely. His question to me- are you happy?


I am so for now I will enjoy the journey and try to be as regular as possible. But for anyone who knows me... Extra is who I am- I am an EXTRAordinary person.

Until then I am stuck in my head symbolically playing he loves me he loves me not. BTW I played this unrelentingly during my early years with the plethora of dandelions that grew in our neighbors yard.

I love me....guess thats all that matters for now. Life as it is- is good.


Stay tuned for Grand Canyon reviews and the Carnival Freedom Cruise taken with the family.

Cruise marked off of to do list. Next is Dubai and Cuba.
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