Life from my view

I feel like the past two weeks I have been in the twilight zone or some form of a purgatory if it really existed. I have been viewing my own life as an outsider- seeing myself in another light not filtered through Juno (my favorite IG filter lol) Come With Me (Hail Mary) lol and see a day in the life of me and my thoughts and my reality I love song references- I swear I can have a conversation in song- every three words remind me of a song... (my randomness) Grandparents- I love mine and my grandmother has both dementia and Alzheimer's- it hurts- she will one day leave me and I have to come to that slowly as her mind and spirit drift away. So lively she was always banging pots or at the mall shopping for us. Now her days waste away with her trying to remember what she thought she forgot to remember- but it is called life and each time I see her I am reminded of how short and brief it is. Married, children, homes, cars, accounts, church, friends, money, fun- what is it to her ...

So do not judge me this go around... but my choice in music is sort of a good indicator of where I am in life attitude wise and this playlist will probably make you believe that I am a 15 year old girl obsessed with Pop culture lol but hey I am in a good place right now lol Side Note: Still listen to my classical music every night... so there I am still a grown up  Heartbreaker: Justin Bieber Work From Home: 5th Harmony Wild Things: Alessia Carr No: Meagan Trainor Work: Rihanna Collide: Justine Skye Captivated: Lawrence Flowers Brand New Me: Alicia Keys Emotion: Destiny's Child Let It Go: Chonique Sneed Exchange: Bryson Tiller All That Matters: Justin Bieber Show Me Your Face: William McDowell Cut It: O.T Genasis Indigo: Sammie At Your Name: Phil Wickman You Need Me: Jacques Picture Me Rollin: Chris Brown Formation:Beyonce Hollow: Tori Kelly Love Again: Ethan Farmer Understanding: Xscape Runnin: Kehlani Say It: Tori Lanez Burnin UP: Jessie J Mind over ...

Did I hurt your feelings when I said it like that? Did I waste my time trying to keep it running like that? Now you got a lot to say Did I really mean it when I said that? Did I? Dressed up walking in a crowd but its you on my mind Thinking it could be different, but maybe we missed it. Should've been us headed to LA... we were crazy but amazing Could've been the real thing....now we will never know for sure Should've been us.... Don't settle for less or infidelity Now I done switched up on ya.... what you want from me Can't let you get one up on me Sorry you not the one ..... Don't-                                          Be Sorry Take a look at myself in the mirror thinking how did I let myself get here You drug my heart through the ground and left it all battered and bruised Done fighting this battle with you, can't keep going in circles Circles- Round ...

So I have exceptional taste in music or so I believe.... it ranges from gospel to rap to classical. Check out some of the songs. Meghan Trainor: Like I'm Gonna Lose you ft. John Legend Jonathan McReynolds: No Gray Ciara: Paint It Black Nils Frahm: Me Monica: Before You Walk Out My life J. Moss: Good & Bad Kehlani: Niggas Lawrence Flowers: More Hans Zimmer: Time Tori Kelly: Art of Letting You Go Rihanna: Stay Beyonce: 7/11 Jessie J: Burnin' Up Trey Songz: I Know Meek Mill: Dreams and Nightmares Kirk Franklin: Don't Take Your Joy Away Ying Yang Twins: Get Low Adrian Marcel: 2AM Donnie McClurkin: Just For Me Jhene Aiko: Comfort Inn Kevin Gates: #IDGT Kid Ink: Show Me Boyz II Men: Doin Just Fine Joelle: Wish I Never India Arie: River Rise Casting Crowns: Who Am I Angel: Anita Baker Ryuichi Sakamoto: Bibo no Aozora Destiny's Child: Bad Habit Fantasia: Aint Gon Beg Karina Pasian: Last To Know Boosie: Like A Man Brandon Hines: Yes You Are ...