Life from my view

So I am up doing some grass roots research into pursuing some passions of mine... hair and fashion.  While texting a guy who is interested in me. And it hit me. I am ready to date again! Finally. Lordt I thought I was going to be stuck in that negative stage forever! By the way the title of this post is inspired by a podcast that I listened to- that helped get me through entitled: Single But READY.. check it out it is eye opening. So if you read some of my post from the August/September period you will note the harping of the breakup and my efforts to rebound date. Well I never wrote about my perspective of trying to rebound date. Let us just say it was horrible. I truly do not recommend trying to rebound date, while being celibate and on the tail ends of a heartbreak... Nothing good comes from Nazareth right? HA.. ok. Basically as I sat here thinking back to that time period I was sooo negative. Negative Nancy welcome to the party. These guys were showing genuine interest in m...

So it is 9:38pm here in rainy Seattle. As I await my flight to DFW- I want to drop some knowledge on you. Feminism by definition is  the advocacy of women's rights on the grounds of political, social, and economic equality to men.  So the portion I want to focus on is the social aspect. I could argue this from several angles inclusive of the viewa of the beyhive and our independence from men. But I am not. I want to argue this from the social aspect of our intwined dependence of each other. So being a 90's era baby I fell in love with the mantra of anything you can do I can do better!  My inner competitor showed all through elementary from spelling bees to playing football and running track. I can be faster, stronger and smarter than any boy... And I believed that with every fiber of my being and for the most part I was successful in my beating of the boys. That was until middle school- when they suddenly were taller than me and stronger than me.... My interest shifted ...

Being single with Valentine's Day on the horizon sucks right? Well not for me, I am refocusing my energies into positive vibes for others. So No, I will not receive a new outfit, shoes, chocolates or even flowers this year- maybe if my daddy decides I still need validation from him- He always buys me valentines gifts *Daddy's Girl* but I don't think he counts anymore at 26 :-) So no guy and no gifts for me but I will be throwing a Valentine's Bash for the kids. Neka Luv the Kids. I decided that I would focus all my creative juices and some funds into making their Valentine's Day fun. I wish some grown up would have thrown us a Valentine's Bash- like how fun is that- not worried about a play gf/bf  just going to have fun with friends on the day my parents were probably creating my siblings lol- One was born beginning of  November--- Calculating? A cookie bar, mocktails, music, DIY photo booth and food! I think I will have more fun than the kids lol. Pictu...

MY TRUTH  So life just ended as I know it.... or so I feel. The finality of it all. Realizing that its really done, over, finito.. What is NEXT? I am not sure but what I do know is I chose me this time. The unselfish, compromising, work with you, patient girl finally said No, for me- it's my turn. Turning the page in this book called life. It took everything in me not to say yes... every thing in me wanted to hold on to what I knew- the good inside you, the laughter, the understanding, the best friend-but I couldn't. Just as in the movie the day after tomorrow... after the storm comes peace... new beginnings. Learning opportunities appear as stages in life. This act is finally finished. I learned a lot about myself and experienced growing pains. It hurts, it really hurts but I have to trust that the day after tomorrow it will all work itself out somehow. So cry today, plan tomorrow and live. Today though...... Today I feel stuck. Today I am in t...