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Why Tho?




Today's sermon is entitled WHY THO?


 Many of you may be wondering where I am going with this... Well just stay with me.
Not too long ago, it was brought to my attention that a person seems to have an unending issue with me to which they have no sound reasoning. When asked why they feel or think this way about me- the answer is trivial or silence ensues. So, I pondered and prayed upon it and the answer that I got was astounding. God said they are jealous and I asked Why Tho?

Jealous of me? I ain't got nothing that they don't have. Then a conversation I had with my mother years ago when I was in middle school came to mind. Backstory being -I have always been sort of a loner- I had my close circle and that was it (No New Friends) Not that I did not want more friends, I just chose them wisely. One day a situation similar to this current one came up, I came home livid- "Mom why is it my name is always being brought up, I do not do anything but mind my own business and do my work!" I don't go anywhere, I don't talk to or about them, I stay in my area and yet and still I am the topic of discussion somehow and it always gets back to me. Why?!

The words of wisdom that day was- well darling they are jealous of you- they want something that you have. But at the time I felt I had nothing. We were on assistance (WIC, Medicaid and Food Stamps) My dad had been laid off, we stayed in a two bedroom home  (mind you it is 5 kids) and my mama did not (still don't) believe in buying Jordans or any other name brand if it was unneccessary (It always was). So what could I possibly have that they did not? I know they probably had their own room- something I wanted, wore the latest name brand fashions- something I wanted, could hang out with friends (I couldn't, it was home and church and grandma house) Was it my hair? This crawly stuff! My skin? I am too dark, or so I believed at the time, My teeth, I have 5 million cavities! I could not grasp the concept of someone being jealous of me.... FOR WHAT? Take it! Whatever it is....

So recently I started thinking let me try and see me from their perspective again.... what do I have now that someone else could possibly not acquire for themselves. God began to reveal to me that it was the insides of me, not the outer shell or material things. He said to me you have peace, joy, love, happiness, long suffering! I almost shouted! So they jealous because of the GOD in me, the qualities that I have inside of me are priceless- money cannot buy a genuine smile or loyalty or faith. The relationships you have are overflowing with love- you give and give of yourself, you are strong, resilient and consistent you bleed leadership. These things cannot be imitated they have to be truly a part of you. That is what they want not these material things and that is why she cannot come up with reasoning for why she dislikes you- it's the God in you- so what type reason is that? Go get you some Jesus too- pick up your bible, treat others as you would like to be treated- stand your ground- pray and you too can have what I have- he gives it freely- ask and it is yours. Miss me with the negativity....  So now I know why and when it comes up again Ima be like.....
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