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When Someone Shows You Who They Are.. Believe Them The First Time- Maya Angelou

I took this to heart today when reflecting over my life choices and why things turned out the way they did. It was brought to my attention by my younger, middle brother that I am all too quick to cut off people. WHEN they do one thing I am like NOPE, DONE.

This is a trait that I know I have and I have always viewed it as both a blessing and a curse. A blessing because I cut the bull at the beginning. A curse because some people deserve another chance. It is one of those gray areas in my life that I try so hard to color in or make clear.

But the real reason why that quote resonated with me is becuase there was a time in my life, these past 4 years, that I tried to not be the person who cuts others off. I tried it and it failed. This quote is true and will forever be true especially when it comes to humans. Rarely do people change to suit others. Self is always more important than others. When others try and project their faults and guilt on you- they are showing their insecurities. I saw the negative and tried to look past it, I heard the truth and made it irrelevant, they showed me who they were at the beginning and I ignored it. Not again. Never will I make someone a priority when I am just an option.

This stems from me re-reading some of my journal entries. As much as I try and reason through Why, How, Who.... It all boils down to when. When... that one moment when they reveal themselves. The mask comes off and there they are. You have to believe it WHEN you see it. I made the mistake and did not believe that they  (inclusive of several beings) were a mamas boy, a liar, a cheater, insecure, weak, controlling, immature, jealous, scared, not ready. They showed me and I did not believe.


When is always a matter of faith, I can answer everything else except for the when and that is why I must take the when for what it is when it comes, whether it is good or bad.



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