Life from my view

Change is inevitable. Change is hard. Change is necessary. In order to grow there are some changes that go on... some are subtle others are drastic! This past year has been trans-formative for me. Letting go of some things and some people that I thought would be in my life for good. But this particular post is not about those people or the situations that led to them being banned from my life. This post is about me realizing that I grew. Growing is a funny thing in both the natural and spiritual realms. When you are younger you do not realize when the growth spurt happens until you try on your favorite pants or shirt and it doesn't quite fit anymore. Same in the spiritual- you do not know until you have to try a situation on. So my growth occurred in the area that I thought I was weak in. I have always been the type to allow 2nd and 3rd chances and allowed people to linger on a lot longer than they should have. Thinking on it, these same people are the ones who have an ex...

I feel like the past two weeks I have been in the twilight zone or some form of a purgatory if it really existed. I have been viewing my own life as an outsider- seeing myself in another light not filtered through Juno (my favorite IG filter lol) Come With Me (Hail Mary) lol and see a day in the life of me and my thoughts and my reality I love song references- I swear I can have a conversation in song- every three words remind me of a song... (my randomness) Grandparents- I love mine and my grandmother has both dementia and Alzheimer's- it hurts- she will one day leave me and I have to come to that slowly as her mind and spirit drift away. So lively she was always banging pots or at the mall shopping for us. Now her days waste away with her trying to remember what she thought she forgot to remember- but it is called life and each time I see her I am reminded of how short and brief it is. Married, children, homes, cars, accounts, church, friends, money, fun- what is it to her ...

So here we are May 3, 2016 and it dawns on me. The day. We also have Facebook to thank us for our ever so fond greatest memories, moments and post "On This Day" a lifetime ago. So I admit- I thought about him today- why is the date forever etched in my mind... hopefully in 2 years time it won't be but for the moment it is. The day he sat in my room and asked if I was ready to embark on this unknown journey of us and I said yes. Well here we are a WHOLE year later and things are not quite what I imagined they would be. And that is OK. However I did want to share some of my past FB post that spurred me to say that May 3, 2016 will be different from my other May 3rd's. So let's take a journey.... May 3, 2011 "I am giving up on dating... its too stressful and cost too much I would rather go work out and that's not fun" Today: I went for a 3 mile run that I thoroughly enjoyed- changed, but I have given up on dating due to the same reasoning men...