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I Thought It Was Me....

It's been a while I know!! Just had a lot going on in July. Updates coming soon.

However, I wanted to talk about this discovery I made in finding out that when it comes to dating- GUESS WHAT girls the guys are just as scared as we are!!! I did not fully realize though until this weekend.

Backstory: I have a good friend  with whom I hang out with all the time. She has a God brother with whom she is really close with and she always tries to fix him up with people. So I would say the past 3 months- since her birthday in May- we all have been hanging really tight. Her birthday, his birthday, my birthday, family functions, summertime fun- just hanging.

The attraction was there- conversations happened- laughs- grocery store runs and he even cooked for me (and my 8 visitors) at 3am... so I am like hey he kinda cute, showing interest etc. I am an awesome tease/flirt....its the afterwards actions and conversations that I fail out i.e the real relationship- but I digress. So I am showing interest here, laughing at jokes, making eye contact- he is flirting back- Good right?

So the next day comes and we exchange text and then.... radio silence until the weekend when he invites me to a family cookout... weird... dont wanna walk into a den of wolves but then again his family is her family and she like a sister to me... so I go.... he fixes my plate- we have some words and now I am leaving for home... that Awkward ok nice to meet everyone are you walking me to my car walk... yeah

This is where it hit me... this man is scared.... so we have idle awkward chatter about my bumper which everyone knows looks like a hit a couple of walls lol.... and in the lowest tone possible he says.... SOOOOO can I call you? Everyonne also knows I am 75% deaf in my right ear so I am the worst at hearing things lol.... but by some divine providence I heard him say that and I was like yeah I would like that..... but here we are at Wednesday and no call.... he probably is worried about what we will talk about... but I am  not sitting by  phone or initiating any reminder text or call...if you want to talk you have my phone number.... I have sent out the flirtations and text my job is done.

So guys: We are just as nervous as you are the only difference is that women (thanks to Mother EVE) we get what we want, when we want- so we go for it w/o thought of consequences and cry later... but my goodness- we want you all!! What are you nervous about? Rejection? For every no there will be a yes... take a chance, live life, love a girl and for pete's sake call her!

Next article will be my review on Jonathan's Oak Cliff and the book "The Wait" which has been on my read list since it came out.... I finally bought it and read it.... STAY TUNED...

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