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Simplicity in the Adventure








This new experience is so refreshing. To be on a journey to find God and he bless you with someone to share in that journey with you.

Of course if you read any of my past post- you know that my last two relationships were not ideal but that they taught me a lot and forced me to take a long hard look at who I was and who I wanted to be and I have been on this self discovery journey sometimes a little low but always pulling through.

This celibacy journey has really impacted my life in ways I never imagined and now to be the inspiration for those close to me to pursue celibacy and real relationships I am overjoyed and humbled. I am now leading others in the right direction just by living my life the way God wants me to.

The peace of mind I have, clear focus- I did not know that I could be so interested in someone without sex....I always saw sex as the means to express my love to someone but its so much deeper than that. Until now- making the conscious decision to wait until I am married, reading Devon Franklin and Megan Good's book "The Wait", sticking to my promise and being content in my own space have all contributed to my current state of me.

This guy is everything I prayed for and more. Someone who loves God as much as I do- encouraging me to pursue my goals in Christ and getting me worked up about this mission trip to Haiti and he is making it happen- I needed that extra push to say just do it and expect greatness to happen. He also is concerned with my and our future. Everyone knows that I am a shopping addict- I love shopping and he is like ok lets talk about your 401k and your NestEgg- ask me questions about that- I want to hear about how you're saving not spending. At first I was a little salty- thinking like who he think he is- I got my finances shoot....if I want these shoes I am going to get them lol but he wants to be sure I am comfortable and if we are to build something together that he has a brick and I have the mortar. He wants to add to my life, not take away from it.

He sees that I have a heart of gold and will give my last, I see that he is willing to go the extra mile for those who cannot repay him.  I see that he is a hard worker and I admire that. We both want a right relationship with Christ and if we are pursuing that- we cannot make a wrong move. Does he challenge me- definitely! But we can talk it through. He does not require or demand that I lose myself in trying to keep him. He told me- you have my attention- just be yourself.

I was not necessarily looking- but he saw me. My best friends brother. Who would have thought- clearly No One... the squad was like "We did not think it was for real" well it is and I have a legitimate reason to start my scrapbook.... My Turn



I am legitimately happy...I have never experienced this before- no hidden agenda or worries about who really has his attention. He incorporates me into his life, he comes to church and leads a life that matches what he says. I am not worried if I can depend on him- he follows through, his word is his bond and that was new to me. I am so used to lies and people not following through.... still waiting on stuff people said they would give 5 years ago... LET IT GO...

But  I was thoroughly surprised like you really gone come to church? We really having a discussion about what we learned in service? You have a worldview- wait you know what a worldview is? I am sold lol. My mom loves him and I know what it is like to be respected as a person and not used for my body.... He encourages me to get into my word and show myself approved and yeah he challenges my thought process but he is both strong and gentle- it is refreshing, intimidating, exciting, scary, intense and simple at the same time.

And he makes song references while in conversation ?where u been all my life? Insert (Rihanna- where have you been) for your listening pleasure.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HBxt_v0WF6Y
To my new adventure......

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