Life from my view

In keeping with current events and our recent "Blood Moon" I wanted to write something in relation to the moon and new beginnings and my thoughts and feelings as I looked upon the full moon these past few days. Night time is magical for me- it seems I awaken!  Could just be that I am not a morning person or the fact that I nap daily- but I feel its more than that. I have always enjoyed star gazing and looking into the moon and realizing that although most feel that the day is done ; at night I am reminded and promised that a new day is on its way. Regardless of the circumstances today- tomorrow is on the horizon. Everything around us has an effect on something within us. As a woman I know that our bodies are in sync with phases of the moon in the form of our menstrual cycles- which in turn affects our ability to create new life. New life is refreshing! I have never been this excited to move before... but to think of beginning anew has been the focal point of my tho...

MY TRUTH  So life just ended as I know it.... or so I feel. The finality of it all. Realizing that its really done, over, finito.. What is NEXT? I am not sure but what I do know is I chose me this time. The unselfish, compromising, work with you, patient girl finally said No, for me- it's my turn. Turning the page in this book called life. It took everything in me not to say yes... every thing in me wanted to hold on to what I knew- the good inside you, the laughter, the understanding, the best friend-but I couldn't. Just as in the movie the day after tomorrow... after the storm comes peace... new beginnings. Learning opportunities appear as stages in life. This act is finally finished. I learned a lot about myself and experienced growing pains. It hurts, it really hurts but I have to trust that the day after tomorrow it will all work itself out somehow. So cry today, plan tomorrow and live. Today though...... Today I feel stuck. Today I am in t...

Unfortunately I am the person who can never make a decision right off. I have so many ideas and thoughts running through my head and there is never just one option. Why are there always so many options? There are options for everything and it kind of freaks me out. I am that person standing at the crossroad with basically 3 other directions to go besides the one you came from. Yeah that is where I am in life right now. I want to go everywhere and do everything besides what I have already done. At least going back is not an option and neither is staying where I am... I have to decide on something at sometime. Even the greatest of leaders suffer from indecision. I am afraid that my indecisiveness might lead into inaction which is unacceptable on any front. That is why I impulse decide usually- due to indecisiveness... just make a decision already! Done. So what is it that I cannot make a decision on? Well right now... this living situation of mine. It's time to move from my apa...

So anyone who knows me- just knows if you ever want to see me smile bring me wine! The excitement I get over wine is crazy. Call it what you will, but a glass of wine can excite me, relax me, make me laugh, cry all at the same time. I call wine "Jesus Water" The Lord knew that he would create people like me who would appreciate his efforts of making different types of grapes and putting them to use until the very end. He knew that I would need something to call mine, something that would allow me to suffer through endless dates, calm my spirits, turn up to, collect my thoughts, natural sleep aid and so much more. Wine is everything. I was at my local 24 hr Kroger and stumbled upon a new blend of one of my favorite blends.... introduced to me by him; "Menage a Trois" They have several blends from their Moscato and Chardonnay to their red blends of which they have a dark version known as (Midnight) and now a soft version called (Silk). The anticipation I have ...

"It's Good To Be Queen"- Quote on my favorite coffee mug. But heavy is the head that wears the crown... I don't care! Crown ME! As I sit her sipping my tea while watching some medieval show- it hit me! I am a queen. So this spurred me into one my infamous google searches on the qualities and characteristics of a queen; the expectations and needs of a queen; what does it mean to be queen? Of course there is Queen Elizabeth, Queen Esther,Queen Nefertiti and Queen of Sheba- what did these women possess that others do not.  Aside from royal blood and marriage- they possessed a certain mindset, strength and respect for themselves first, then for the people. Women in general have always been seen as the infererior sex due to our "ambition" as I call it in the Garden. As women we have always wanted more and are able to yield our power over men once we realize how to use it properly. As queens we possess the potential to not only birth a nation but to contro...

I read this article the other day about finding self and purpose "Unbecoming Who You Are and Embracing Your True Self"  It was really interesting and I had a few take aways from it. 1. Realizing that I do not know who I am is the 1st step and then make steps to find that person For the first time in my adult life.... I am single. Like really single, there is no "almost done" relationship or "friends with benefits" or guy I am talking to seriously.  It is just me, myself and I. What do I do when my phone is as dry as the Sahara? 2. I am scared. I realized that I have this overwhelming fear of being alone as well as fear of being vulnerable. I wore a mask of this strong, confident woman covered up by my education and ambition. When in actuality I am a scared woman searching for myself in the midst of lifes distractions. School was my out, my way of becoming "safe" You can not take away my knowledge. Once you know something you cannot unknow...

AH YES, BLACK WOMEN DATING WHITE MEN. WELL, MAYBE I WILL HAVE A LITTLE EXPERIENCE WITH THIS SOONER RATHER THAN LATER. EVE FOUND HER PRINCE CHARMING..... FIRST, I HAVE NEVER ACTUALLY DATED OUTSIDE MY RACE, I THOUGHT ABOUT IT AND EVEN ENTERTAINED CONVERSATIONS ABOUT IT, BUT NEVER FOLLOWED THROUGH BUT WHY NOT? YOU ASK........ IT JUST SEEMED WEIRD, THEY ASK QUESTIONS ABOUT "NORMAL BLACK PEOPLE STUFF." I THOUGHT, AND STILL DO THINK THAT WE WILL NOT HAVE THE SAME INTEREST SUCH AS MUSIC, MOVIES, FOOD AND LIFE IN GENERAL. WILL HE EAT RUDY'S CHICKEN? HOW DOES HE MAKE KOOL-AID? HOW DO YOU NOT KNOW WHO LUTHER VANDROSS IS? ARE HIS PARENTS RACIST? QUESTION I WOULD HATE TO HAVE AN ANSWER TO IF THEY WERE. WITH THE CURRENT SOCIAL CLIMATE... WILL I BE PERCEIVED AS A TRAITOR? I HAVE NEVER CARED WHAT OTHERS THOUGHT OF ME, WON'T START NOW. SO WHY START NOW? WHY IN THE WORLD WOULD YOU EVEN TRY AND DATE A WHITE GUY GIRL? WELL TO ANSWER YOU, WHY NOT? WE SAY WE LOVE LEAR...