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Piece of my heart

First things first- when someone dies it is "Sorry for your loss" Not LOST.... OK CARRY ON...

Sept 23, my paw paw left me. He was my first date, my etiquette instructor, my listening ear and my biggest cheerleader. You paid me for my good grades even just this year in grad school. You taught me the importance of having a plan. I had to create a full proposal for you on what I would spend this much needed 600.00 on while in New York- I asked you provided. 

You were very much so what I needed in this life. I lost Liz at the age of 13 and now you at the age of 28. I dealt with it a lot better this time around, but it still hurts. I wanted you to at least see me get married, but you can't live forever is what you told me. I will miss your presence in your spot on the couch, I am just thankful for the years that we got. 

It was a combination of things that finally made you leave. The heart problems; you suffered through 5 heart attacks in my lifetime alone- 2 open heart surgeries, man you were strong. Loss of your baby son, that had to have taken a toll. Grandma and her demise and losing sight in both your eyes. But you soldiered on. Hearing of your faithfulness and your commitment to your roles as father, brother, son, cousin, usher and leader- your legacy lives on. Rest well now paw paw- 84 years young.

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