Life from my view

I have wrote and deleted and wrote and deleted. It has been a while but I have been on my grind for work, school and cultivating a new relationship. Kind of in my feelings today. Not sure why. Loving my job, in a good place mentally, kind of stagnant physically but that is an ongoing process but all in all life as it is- is good. I am scared of the feelings. I am scared of falling off of the ledge again and being hurt. But the journey is so worth it. Falling in love is what life is about whether it is falling in love with a person or your lifes passion. Love is worth every text message, every argument, every fear, every laugh. I am in this new place and it is scary for me. I know what it is like to be in love and it be unrequited- but I have no clue what its like to be loved and be in love at the same time. It is new territory for me and the LOVE word- let me not. I am so afraid to use that loosely. His question to me- are you happy? I am so for now I will enjoy the journey and tr...

This weekend I had the joy and honor of hosting the Launch Party for "ITM" Dallas. This initiative is a mentoring program geared towards young minority males to provide them with an outlet to be themselves and find their purpose in life. This program is not like others where I call you 1x week and maybe show up to a few games. It is about giving and receiving what you need to succeed.  The premise of the program is to not only mentor young men but for those same young men to then become mentors for a lifetime. The level of accountability is unsurpassed. As a mentee- I can mess up and maybe slack on my goals a little because someone (my mentor) is there to guide me, but once I become a mentor- someone else is now depending on me to be their guide and I now have a true empathy and understanding for their plight as a mentee- because I was there. It is genius. Consistency is the goal and we are committed to changing the world- 1 life at a time. Successful launch party on 10...

This new experience is so refreshing. To be on a journey to find God and he bless you with someone to share in that journey with you. Of course if you read any of my past post- you know that my last two relationships were not ideal but that they taught me a lot and forced me to take a long hard look at who I was and who I wanted to be and I have been on this self discovery journey sometimes a little low but always pulling through. This celibacy journey has really impacted my life in ways I never imagined and now to be the inspiration for those close to me to pursue celibacy and real relationships I am overjoyed and humbled. I am now leading others in the right direction just by living my life the way God wants me to. The peace of mind I have, clear focus- I did not know that I could be so interested in someone without sex....I always saw sex as the means to express my love to someone but its so much deeper than that. Until now- making the conscious decision to wait until...

When its new and refreshing Smiling while texting Foregoing my beauty rest to talk Occupying my mind Making time Feeling safe It's Different Genuine You think you in Alicia Keys early 2000's music videos Feeling 15 Transparent Possibilities Confidence When It Just Might Be...REAL

Family vacay time LOL yep up the street in Flint, TX. 10 miles outside of Tyler, TX. So my parents are a part of the generation that actually bought timeshares... yeah smart right- well this time it kind of - sort of paid off. We got to stay free of charge- just used the accumulated points. Outside of horrible customer service from the Holiday Inn staff- all in all I had a wonderful time with my family. My siblings and I had fun messing with each other and making useless snap chat post, it was relaxing- one of the best naps in life on Saturday and I went a full day without phone service due to my case blocking reception in the woods- weird.  Here a few snaps of our time in Flint. So if you just want to get away from all the noise of the city- but not be too far- visit Flint, take a boat out on to Lake Palestine, stay a night- get some quiet time. #Texasgirlsdoitbetter in honor of this awesome Olympic season we have had....I digress

Was not sure what to title this particular post. So many new things and blessings happening in my life right now. For starters let me say God has really been pouring into my life these past 2 months alone and I can truly say that I tried him. Now-- he is trying me lol. I made 1 year on my trek to celibacy Aug 3, 2016!! It was a struggle, I cried a lot and I had to dig deep in order to get to the root of why I even started having sex before marriage. Past the surface self esteem stuff and actually come to grips with the fact that I was lost. I knew so much and so little at the same time. Wanting to be loved, not knowing what it truly was or how to properly give it. So year 1- done! The level of growth and being able to see these guys for what they are right then and there has truly saved me some time and energy. A (BOY) and I emphasize boy because of his mindset tried for several months to invite himself to my place of residence after I clearly stated my stance on celibacy and even ...

Let me start by saying- wonderful location. In the heart of Oak Cliff- Bishop Arts District- very charming and right by another specialty restaurant VH Pho House so no competition there. Either you want something fried or you want soup.. This review will definitely be my invitation for people to come back into and support Oak Cliff. With all of the gentrification going on- I am definitely taking part in enjoying what my hometown has to offer. Oak Cliff has been known for far too long for negativity; crime, AIDS epidemic and a struggling school district- but no longer. We are making some changes and I am here for it.   The 30-seat dining room is a cozy blend of homegrown (local staff, one page menu with explanation of ingredients (I need that)) and rustic modern (eclectic drink menu, main street patio seating, dallas trolley stop). You can also eat at the 4 seat bar with direct views of the kitchen staff and the stove. Jonathan's menu is by-the-book southern. Grits and o...